Leap of Faith

The months of July and August has been a month of stepping out on faith and jumping hurdles.  On Aug 3rd I finally took my jet ski that I was riding the day David was killed to a friends lake to see if I was going to keep it or sell it.  I didn’t want to make that decision until I got it out on the lake to see how I would feel about it and take another step toward my healing from that day.  I also didn’t want to put a lot of pressure on myself of how I would react once i got on the jet ski, the only thing I kept my focus on leading up to going to the lake and while I was on the lake was David and I had more happy and joyful days on our jet ski vs our one horrible day.  Once we got to the lake my friend helped me get it in and surprisingly I was a little excited to get it out and enjoy it again.  Of course I had some moments that weren’t fun, memories of that day that came flooding back but I continually asked God to be my strength during my weakness and he showed himself faithfully to me.  After awhile it was like a switch came on and I was able to enjoy the rest of the day, even Cytori got to enjoy a victory lap with me.  Now I look forward to taking it back out with my family and friends.

I continually look at the last almost 2 years and see how far I have come and how different I am in all aspects in my life.  Spiritually I have become closer to God and his love for me, emotionally I have gone from distraught to peace.  I am excited to see where God is leading me and how he will use me for his grater purpose.  I believe I am here today because of God’s Grace, I pray that my family, friends and people who meet me see God’s Grace and Mercy in my life and can experience the same in there’s.

May God Bless Your Life

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