Falcon Lake Shooting Again

Well, my friends sadly another shooting has happened again on Falcon Lake.  This time it was on the opposite side of the lake by the dam and two friends Javier Gonzalez and Oscar Eduardo Garza were night fishing on the lake and were approached by a boat.  They exchanged words and when the men saw a gun they sped off then the gun shots started being shot at them.  Oscar was shot and Javier jumped into the water after the gun shots started hitting the boat.  It is unclear as to if the men were on the US or  Mexico side of the water but officials were able to retrieve the boat and Oscar’s body.  Javier was taken to the hospital and treated for hypothermia.  The investigation on this case is open and they are working on collecting the evidence still.

I was able to speak to Oscar’s dad to give him my condolences for the loss of his son.  I understand what they are going through at this time and wondering why this happened but I also know that as much as Oscar’s dad would like to speak out more about the incident he is unable to because of fear of what the cartel will do to him or his family.  I was able to because I was not from that area and I am not of the Mexican dissent which is why David’s and My situation was able to be so publicized.

Please be praying for the families of Oscar Garza and Javier Gonzalez as Javier will be going through a lot of grief similar to what I have gone through. Below are a few links of news stories that have been aired in McAllen Texas.

Falcon Lake Shooting Again
Problems at border again

Restored Joy

If you would of asked me a year ago if I would feel or experience JOY again, I probably would of told you that joy most likely wouldn’t exists in my life again.   And when I talk about joy I mean the deep down unexplainable joy that the Bible talks about.  Just recently I have found that Joy when I stepped out in faith and decided to go boating and get on the water for the first time since David was killed.  I wanted to start taking baby steps to getting my life back and start enjoying the things that were holding me back from living and enjoying the things that David and I enjoyed together.

So, I went boating and got on the inter-tube and had a wonderful time, then the following weekend I went skydiving for the first time.  Boating was the beginning of my leap of faith but skydiving was by far the tipping point of my sense of  freedom.  I loved every minute of it and had a smile on my face that hasn’t left.  I can’t explain why skydiving made me feel alive again but I feel like a new person, a person who is ready to keep moving forward toward what God has in store for me.  For the first time I can see a happier me, I see myself helping others who have been through traumatic experiences, and maybe even marring again.

My goal before the end of summer is to get back on my jet ski and overcome the fear of what memories/flashbacks it might bring forth.  I am already telling myself that once I get on that jet ski the only memories I’ll have is the ones full of joy and excitement.  I refuse to allow myself to think of all the bad ways my mind can react to getting back on it.  I know God will protect me just like he did on Sept 30th and when I went boating.  The worst part of going boating was when we were leaving all I could think of was David would love to be there enjoying the lake.  I could visualize his smile and the look he would have on his face if he were there with us.  Then I remind myself that he is in the most beautiful place and there’s no way he would want to be down here on earth.  His adventures are far more exciting than going boating.  So, for now I will complete all the adventures that we planned to do.

God has shown himself faithful in my life and like my friend has told me from the beginning “God will restore everything that has been stolen from you”.  I believed her then but now I truly believe and receive everything God has in store for me.  He’s restoring my joy… praise God

God has never left me nor forsaken me

Joy is Alive again

God Bless

Tiffany

The other day I came across this saying and it spoke to my heart, I believe God new I needed some encouragement.  So, I would like to share it with anyone who reads this and that you will also be encouraged.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t.

Believe everything happens for a reason, if you are given a second chance, “Grab it with both hands”

If it changes your life

“Let It”

Nobody said life would be easy, They promised it would be worth it!

After reading this my heart was so touched because I was given my second chance and I know if God’s hand was not on my life on Sept 30, 2010 I would not be here.  A friend said to me ” Tiffany it was not your time, if it was, you wouldn’t be here “.  I have always known this but I guess after reading this it became even more real to me.  I have said it before that I really want this year to reflect my second chance and that I want to live my life to the fullest and live a life God and David would be proud of.

I have started to work again which has been really good because I am getting out of the house and meeting people.  It has been an adjustment going from not working for the last 15 months to working 2 part time jobs but it is keeping me busy and I am enjoying it.

This year has had it’s challenges and my faith has been tested all over again.  So, due to some challenges that rocked me to the core, I have not been living my life the way I would like to and now that I have gotten through those difficult times, I feel I am back on track and encouraged that life is heading down a path that only God could have paved out for me and I know he has walked my steps before me and all I have to do is follow in his footsteps.  So, my prayer is that God will lead me down his path he has planned for me because I know his will for my life is greater than I could imagine.

I also had come to the conclusion that my life is bigger than my moments and that my identity is not in David’s death nor Sept 30th, yes it has formed part of my identity and the person that I am today and who I am becoming, but it is not who I am.  My identity is in who God says I am not who the world says I am.  Yes, I have gone through the most horrible thing anyone could imagine, and I am still going through a lot of the pain and grief but I also know that I can not stay in my grief.  Staying in a place where I don’t allow myself to heal doesn’t do me or anyone else any good.  I remind myself all the time that David is happy and he is at peace and in reality he got the better end of the deal.  So I feel I grieve more for myself and not for David.  God’s word says he heals the brokenhearted but he can only do that if we allow him access to our heart and to our pain.  My only hope is that through my life and overcoming the pain I feel inside that God will use me to touch other women and men who have maybe gone through or are going thru a tragic experience.  To encourage them and help them see that God is with them, he loves them, and that he did not make what they are experiencing happen to them, but he will be there to help them through it.

I was watching a movie the other day and the daughter in the show, lost her husband and she asked her dad ” how do you let go “?  He said ” your not letting go of the love you shared with him, your letting go of the life you shared with him “.  I found that to be great wisdom and I also find it relates to anyone who has lost a spouse, child, parent, sibling or friend.  I hope this has been encouraging to anyone who maybe reading this

God Bless

Remains Found on Falcon Lake

I first would like to start off by saying how much I appreciate that the Mexican Authorities located and recovered the remains so quickly.  And how the U. S. Authorities kept me informed as to what was going on as they got updated.  But most of all I appreciate that Alton Jones did his part as to taking down GPS coordinates and taking a photo so they could give the information to Border Patrol.  Without him thinking to take down the GPS coordinates it would of probably taken a lot longer to find the remains.  Even though the remains were not my husband which we are extremely sad that it wasn’t him but we also knew that the possibilities were slim.  I still have to thank everyone because this guy has a family and they deserve to find the same closer and peace that we are looking for.  I will be praying that the Mexican Authorities can figure out who he is and are able to contact his family.

I know a lot of people don’t agree with me that one day David will be found and that he will come home to me and our families.  I know his body is dead but his spirit is alive in Heaven.  I feel without hope there is nothing to believe or hope in and I know my God and if he can create a Heaven and Earth, cure someone from cancer and so many more things than he can find a way to bring David’s remains home.

God has been so faithful in my life and there’s no reason for me to doubts his love for me.  Even though my extreme sadness I still can find reasons to praise God.  Trust me I’ll be the first to say when I’m struggling I look at God and ask WHY but by the time I’m done being mad at God I’m praising him.  I would not be here today if it wasn’t for God’s love and grace, he saved me on September 30, 2010 and no one can deny that.  I could of been shot and killed like David or worst, I could of been taken, raped, abused and then killed.  So, everyday I have reason to praise and thank God for what he has done in my life and what he is doing in my life.

So, if your reading this and you pray please join me in praying for the family of this gentlemen.  We may not know who they are but God does and he hears our prayers.  Just like he hears my prayers, I believe in God’s timing David will come home.

http://denver.cbslocal.com/2012/01/10/hartley-says-skeleton-found-in-falcon-lake-wasnt-david/

Love and God Bless

Tiffany

Clearing up some questions that have been asked!

Hi everyone, I would like to take time tonight just to clear up a few things that people have been asking.  David and I went to Falcon in August and spent 3-4 hours on the opposite side of the lake from the church.  We had a wonderful day and that was our plan on September 30th.  That day we decided to go take pictures of the church which we had never been to before.  We didn’t realize that the area we were going thru was such a high drug traffic area.  We figured there would be no harm in taking pictures and then going to the main part of the lake to enjoy the rest of the day.  We had not heard of any attacks for several months so we decided it would be fine to enjoy one more day on the lake. 

Also, I would like to cover why I am going to continue to speak out against the War that is going on in Mexico.  I am very frustrated that our Presidents have not taken the War in Mexico seriously.  There is to much money going back and forth between Mexico and the US. This needs to stop and we need more troops on our borders.  From what I understand the National Guard is the only one who can help Border Patrol in securing our borders but they can’t arrest or hold the illegals until Border Patrol get there. I don’t understand why they don’t have authority to do the job that needs to be done.  I am disappointed in President Obama for not addressing our situation and many others who have been threw the same thing.   

My goal is to continue fighting to get David’s body back to the US where he belongs and also getting our government/citizens to start taking action and changing the way we look at Mexico and the drug cartel.  If it means we shut down the border than that’s what we do. If we put 10,000 or more troops on our borders to secure them than that’s what we do.  But we, as a country, need to do something. As citizens we can stop going/buying anything from Mexico and stop hiring illegals.  As for our government they can change a lot of things and change some laws that are supporting illegals living here.  I feel America needs to take care of their own first, not people who come here illegally to take advantage of the system. 

I may have lived there for several years but I never felt at risk. The last 5 months before moving to Texas were when it started to get really bad.  The CDG and Zeta’s had a split and that’s when they started to fight each other and fight over the territory.  So I really want to educate and fight for our freedoms as Americans.  I am really new to all of the political stuff and new to what is going on in our country as well as Mexico but I am learning. I know I’m not an expert but at least my eyes have opened to what is really going on.  God Bless – Tiffany

Jan Brewer slams challenge to AZ Law by Foreign Governments

Please watch this video it will give you an eye opening experience to what is happening to our country and how Obama is allowing other countries to control what goes on in the US.  This is America and in my opinion they don’t have any rights to what happens in our country or our states.