5 Year Anniversary

Today marks 5 years since David was taken away from me in a very violent, terrifying way.  When I look back to that day I see terror and sadness but then I see God’s hand and his grace.  Many people would not understand how or why I see God’s hand in that horrible day but when you look at it from God’s eyes you/I see his tender hand protecting us.  I know I haven’t posted anything for a really long time but I would like to update anyone who might read this on what has happened these last few years!

In May of 2011 I started having a tingly/numb sensation in my right leg that would not go away but I pushed it off as stress.  Then in February 2012 I woke up and could not see out of my left eye, so after a MRI and many doctor appointments I was diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis).  At the time this was so devastating but after lots of prayer my eye sight came back in less than a month and the tingly sensation has gone away and my MS is stable.

On a happier note I have seen my sister get married and become a mom, I have become an auntie to two adorable girls and one on the way (we don’t know if it’s a boy or girl yet), I have gotten back onto my jet ski and have been able to enjoy it this summer, went skydiving, I’ve shot guns again with my dad.  I’ve bought a house and I am for the first time living independently, I love having my own space.  My biggest change is that I am dating a wonderful man who has been patient, loving, understanding and caring during the many trials I have gone through.  He would love to marry me (like yesterday) but since David has never been found I have not been able to receive a death certificate so I am still legally married.  So as I always tell him SOMEDAY…. just like I told him before we went on our first date.  If I was killed 5 years ago I would not of been able to experience all of these JOYS in my life.

Has the last 5 years been hard YES, has it been good YES, do I still think of that day 5 years ago YES, have I received joy amidst sadness YES.  God has been so gracious to me the last 5 years and I know that I will continue to have new found joy in my life and God will continue to restore the joy that was taken from me.  I am excited to see what God has planned for me and for my future.

My sweet Cytori

January 14th 2013 my sweet Cytori past away, since she was bit by a baby rattlesnake she hasn’t been the same and her heart just hasn’t been as strong as it once was.  2012 was not a great year for her but she was a fighter and pulled through so many obstacles that came her way.  I am so thankful that David gave me her 11 years ago and that she has been such a blessing to me and everyone who has been touched by Cytori’s unconditional love and sweetness.  Once again Cytori and David can  be reunited and have fun together just like they use to.  I miss her so much but I know she isn’t in pain and she’s with her papa now, and for that I am thankful for.

Miss you both so much!

Suspect arrested in Falcon Lake killing

On Monday I received a call from a media friend in Texas who told me that the Mexico Government arrested Salvador Alfonso Martinez Escobedo who was involved in Murdering David.  As you can imagine this came to me as a surprise/shock since I haven’t had any news for quite some time.  It’s probably has been since the remains were discovered at Falcon Lake back in December of 2011.  Right now we are working on gathering information from both sides of the border to see how this suspect was involved in killing David and if he had anything to do with his murder then where are David’s remains.  The latest information I heard was that the Mexico authorities were cooperating with the FBI in the investigation.  Please continue to have us in your prayers that the suspect can and will lead authorities to David’s remains so we can honor him the way he always wanted.  Thank you for all of your support and prayers!


Leap of Faith

The months of July and August has been a month of stepping out on faith and jumping hurdles.  On Aug 3rd I finally took my jet ski that I was riding the day David was killed to a friends lake to see if I was going to keep it or sell it.  I didn’t want to make that decision until I got it out on the lake to see how I would feel about it and take another step toward my healing from that day.  I also didn’t want to put a lot of pressure on myself of how I would react once i got on the jet ski, the only thing I kept my focus on leading up to going to the lake and while I was on the lake was David and I had more happy and joyful days on our jet ski vs our one horrible day.  Once we got to the lake my friend helped me get it in and surprisingly I was a little excited to get it out and enjoy it again.  Of course I had some moments that weren’t fun, memories of that day that came flooding back but I continually asked God to be my strength during my weakness and he showed himself faithfully to me.  After awhile it was like a switch came on and I was able to enjoy the rest of the day, even Cytori got to enjoy a victory lap with me.  Now I look forward to taking it back out with my family and friends.

I continually look at the last almost 2 years and see how far I have come and how different I am in all aspects in my life.  Spiritually I have become closer to God and his love for me, emotionally I have gone from distraught to peace.  I am excited to see where God is leading me and how he will use me for his grater purpose.  I believe I am here today because of God’s Grace, I pray that my family, friends and people who meet me see God’s Grace and Mercy in my life and can experience the same in there’s.

May God Bless Your Life

Aurora, CO Shooting

A week ago tonight just after midnight a coward went into a movie theater and started shooting into the crowded theater.  Friday morning my sister called me and told me about it and I was in shock and disbelief as to what happened.  My heart broke for the 12 families that lost a loved one and to all the survivors who made it out alive, even if they were wounded they still were alive.  A few are still in critical condition but many of them are recovering and doing well.

All day Friday I believe God was breaking my heart for what breaks his.  All the way to work I just cried and couldn’t stop, once I got to work so I sat in my car until I could get myself together.  My heart truly could relate to every person who was in the theater.  Even though I was not there I could put myself in their shoes and know the horror they felt.

Everyday since the shooting I pray for the families and friends who have been affected by this horrible tragedy.  My prayer is that I soon will be able to offer my help to the survivors who wish to visit with someone who can not only relate to what they went through and to what they will be going through in the days to come.  I know for me it would of been helpful to visit with someone who understands exactly what they saw, heard and felt.

I pray God will give them the peace and comfort he has given to me.

Carl Wiegand

Please continue to have Carl Wiegand’s family in your prayers.  Carl has been missing since the beginning of March and he is still missing.  I heard from Carl’s family and they are still searching for Carl and praying for his safe return.  As far as I know there has not been anymore information since he was going to cross back into the U.S. at Falcon Dam but then was redirected to cross at the Roma crossing.  I know Carl’s family is feeling like their world has been knocked of it’s axis and their hearts are not whole with Carl missing and without knowing where he is or what happened to him I know they are feeling truly lost without him.

So, please continue to lift Carl’s family up in prayer and Carl’s safe return home.

“El Loco” Drug Cartel Leader Captured

El Loco! Drug Cartel Leader Captured After Beheading 49 People In Mexico (VIDEO)

I know this is a little late getting posted but in my mind I thought I already posted it but obviously I hadn’t.  Every time I hear about another person killed in Mexico my heart sinks.  Honestly anytime I hear someone is killed because I know what the family is going thru and the pain they feel.
Here we have 49 people/families that have been affected by the hand of the Drug Cartels.  These families are all going thru a loss that should not have happened.  Once again it goes to show the Cartels have control over Mexico and can get away with whatever they want.
I continue to pray for Mexico because we know that the world is the Devils stronghold and the Devils stronghold on Mexico is stronger than anyone could or any government could help.  I believe God is the only one that can help Mexico and the mess they are in.  Please join me in praying for Mexico and the citizens that are being affected by the violence of the Cartels.  Please also pray for the Cartel members that God will touch their hearts and that they will be open to turning from their wicked ways.
God Bless

Carl Jonathan Wiegand

In the beginning of March Carl Jonathan Wiegand of  Lockhart, Texas went missing near Falcon Lake.  The last the family heard about his where abouts was when he tried to cross back into the U.S. at Falcon Dam.  They sent him to Roma because the Dam crossing was closed and he never made it to Roma.  Since this is near Falcon where David was killed it makes me worry that Carl has been kidnapped or killed. My heart is broken for the Wiegand family because I understand what their going thru but at the same time I have no clue because I know what happened to David but the Wiegand family has no clue what has happened or is happening to Carl.  I pray that I can be of a support to his family or just a friend who knows a little about what their going through.

I am really upset that I didn’t hear about this until just a little over a week ago and that Colorado nor any other state is continuing their reporting about U.S. / Mexico Border.

I was talking to a lady in McAllen, TX and she was saying in the last 6-8 months the kidnappings have gone up in the Rio Grande Valley and just on Facebook my friend got a warning from her school that there had been kidnappings at the school.  Seriously, America, Washington, U.S. President how are we not taking notice and doing something about this.  We have a national security issue on our border and it’s not just with Mexico it’s with many other countries that are crossing into the U.S. thru the Mexico border and threatening our national security.

David’s and my family will continue our prayers and support to the Wiegand family and for anyone who reads this please keep them in your prayers and all of those who are in the Wiegand’s situation because we know there are 1000 of families that are going thru the same thing.

God Bless


John and Wanda Casias

I am deeply saddened that John and Wanda Casias were murdered in Mexico and that not only were their lives effected but they had 10 children who lost not just one parent but both at the same time from the ruthless violence of a group of coward who have no respect for human life.  The only thing comforting in their death is that they are with our Lord and are happy beyond what we can imagine.  My prayers and thoughts are with the Casias family and I pray God will bring peace and comfort to their lives.  Many people have had such wonderful things to say about this couple and it sounds to me God had a two wonderful people helping him to spread the Good News.

God Bless

Remains Found on Falcon Lake

I first would like to start off by saying how much I appreciate that the Mexican Authorities located and recovered the remains so quickly.  And how the U. S. Authorities kept me informed as to what was going on as they got updated.  But most of all I appreciate that Alton Jones did his part as to taking down GPS coordinates and taking a photo so they could give the information to Border Patrol.  Without him thinking to take down the GPS coordinates it would of probably taken a lot longer to find the remains.  Even though the remains were not my husband which we are extremely sad that it wasn’t him but we also knew that the possibilities were slim.  I still have to thank everyone because this guy has a family and they deserve to find the same closer and peace that we are looking for.  I will be praying that the Mexican Authorities can figure out who he is and are able to contact his family.

I know a lot of people don’t agree with me that one day David will be found and that he will come home to me and our families.  I know his body is dead but his spirit is alive in Heaven.  I feel without hope there is nothing to believe or hope in and I know my God and if he can create a Heaven and Earth, cure someone from cancer and so many more things than he can find a way to bring David’s remains home.

God has been so faithful in my life and there’s no reason for me to doubts his love for me.  Even though my extreme sadness I still can find reasons to praise God.  Trust me I’ll be the first to say when I’m struggling I look at God and ask WHY but by the time I’m done being mad at God I’m praising him.  I would not be here today if it wasn’t for God’s love and grace, he saved me on September 30, 2010 and no one can deny that.  I could of been shot and killed like David or worst, I could of been taken, raped, abused and then killed.  So, everyday I have reason to praise and thank God for what he has done in my life and what he is doing in my life.

So, if your reading this and you pray please join me in praying for the family of this gentlemen.  We may not know who they are but God does and he hears our prayers.  Just like he hears my prayers, I believe in God’s timing David will come home.


Love and God Bless